updating, hoping to keep it up

i am really tired today. i have a headache, too. how exciting to start. besides today i have been feeling really good. getting sleep. doing stuff. eating well. less head and body aches. i was in hella pain last night and i couldn't sleep so i used my trigger point pro self massage tool and work my neck, shoulders and back. i layed with the heating pad for a bit and slept for a few hours. better than being up all night. i woke up with a headache. took 400mg ibuprofren and felt good until about 3pm today...then i began fading. layed down with heat. couldn't sleep at first. slept from 4-7pm. best be able to sleep tonight.

bo is out getting some mota and food. he had been great at dealing with my moods, even in mornings. i am feeling slightly suffocated, but when he is gone i wish we were together. we've talked about not co-habitating yet, but he is here a lot. i get it. he lives with 3 band members in a messy place. he says he gets more done here bc all they do is smoke and drink all day and it's loud and dirty and he gets agro.

i am actually getting more done and we are both smoking less bc we share and do other stuff. not too many details, but the sex is A-fucking-mazing! we communicate a lot even about sex and feel that we both speak our minds and let each other know if something is bothering us or anything. i think the worst is the mornings as it usually is. i think once we both have work it will even out, both of us are so random with our schedules and sleep but we work well together.

i am doing really well! i pulled a B+ in my last class even though i totally slacked. i am stoked! for this class, my teacher is bomb. she is really open and fun and i actually wrote woo hoo! to a response and she said we should move to have it in the dictionary - lol. i am trying to read. but ANTM is on. so i have the page open, but not reading it. nothing is due until tomorrow, but i posted check in and bio early and wanna stay ahead of the game instead of right at the final bell or catching up.

group was good today. karapist told me that psych mentioned how well i am doing in the mental health staff meeting. wowza. sky3 and j48 were not there so it was me, karapist and l57 and 200mg. we got really loud. i kept pretty calm and l57 and i walked and talked for a bit afterward.

i have hours tomorrow and am on call friday. i got called from a lead teacher who said i have been getting really positive feedback from the other teachers and am subbing for him mon/tues. woo hoo! i sooooo want to get hired at this place. but am still looking at other places bc my mom loan got declined and i need money to pay rent and bills. and i would like to have money to go out to music and stuff, but am having fun doing what i am doing. board games are making a comeback. i need to watch the final 13 of ANTM, er want to, and need to read for school. i could totally post today, too but this headache is pissing me off. and getting angry usually helps headaches go away. grr.

love! hope to be posting more *_*