I've been doing a lot and feeling good but at the same time overwhelmed. Thursday I panicked about going out to try to hang up posters, but did, made it to one coffee shoppe and then was on-line with rb there. They were tapping a new beer at a brew pub and everyone gets a free pint and they have good, cheap happy hour, so we met and talked a lot. And then spent time in bed which was great, we really have a strong physical connection.
Friday rb and I went on a photowalk and walked for what seemed like ever but i got over 50 good photos :) I babysat right after and felt like a failure because both kids were up at like 845 when bedtime is 8 but they were just reading in their beds but of course got up when their parents got home. Last week the older son was up reading so double whammy. It's tough when I have to cook because then we don't have time to play games or read as much. I apologized to the parents and they seemed fine and said they know the kids want to spend time with me, tonight they are going to bed and sleeping before their parents are home!
After I was going to go right to the show but it was too early, so I came home and then went to the show. First, three things I hate about shows: 1) people talking, 2) tall people going right in front of me, 3) people touching me; that's all shows, it's freaking annoying. but i had a good time, i danced hard and didn't make the last bus that is close to my house so I took the last bus out of downtown and walked on the east side for miles, 2:20 I got off bus and was home a little after 3am. But I keep waking up before enough sleep, basically once the smoke and/or benadryl have worn off after 4-6 hours :(
Saturday I went to a friends new coffee shoppe and bought a donut and a mocha and gave her some posters to hang, then I went to a record shoppe and a restaurant and got a few more up :) halfway done, I should totally go today but am tired, a lot of, but it's due tomorrow, I know I can do it. I also watched L for a few hours and he was fusssssy, I think he has an ear ache, but I am prone to that so it might be influencing my thoughts about it. He cried more than ever and wouldn't eat again, but it was okay. I got a bad headache and tried to rest when I got home, but it didn't help, so I ordered take out bc I was too tired to go anywhere and I ran out of food stamps until the 9th. I planned to get to the show at 10 and would've been perfect to see Eskmo, but trimet didn't run properly and I got there at like 10:45 right at the end of the set. I watched a little less than an hour of Beats Antique which was great but I was writhing in pain. It's so tough to not buy tickets, bc this did sell out but then sometimes I don't feel great the night of and then I don't want to lose the money and not go, although sometimes I will like when my ears were really bad. It's a delicate balance, now that I will be on guest list for a lot of shows, it'll be easier.
Today I still have a headache and want go hang posters but am hella tired and I babysit tonight at like 5:15. That's all for now.
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