ugh, i am on the verge of puking. total anxiety. i've had a few full on puking anxiety attacks recently when i haven't had them in forever. fun.
i didn't go to the party last night. i watched the Yankees v. Mariners and could've gone after, but i was couch mush by that time. i am glad i didn't drink last night bc i would feel worse. it would've been good to see people, but i was in a mood that i still hadn't kicked from friday night and big groups are the worst at those times.
i am totally confused with what to do with the camera. someone won the auction on ebay for $200 plus $25 shipping to missouri. i get a cryptic email about how do they pay and how long it's on reserve and BS. i had already sent them an invoice. and then i wrote an ebay message to them explaining that they now are required to put that money in mypaypal account ASAP and there is no reserve, it's theirs and otherwise i get to deal with fraud stuff, FUN!!! besides that...a really nice couple in portland offered $150 and i was totally going to meet them today with it but then i checked on the closing of my auction, bc otherwise i could be in trouble with ebay. annoying. i freaking need money.
in other things that are pissing me off, i keep seeing my paperwork for my RETIREMENT account that my family set up. what the hell? hopefully when i am retiring in like THIRTY or MORE years i can have my shit together. i am so fucked right now it's not even funny. Sept rent=unpaid. Sept bills=unpaid. Sept medicine=not going to be able to get. i have money for school but i can't get it until after the first week of classes in the beginning of October, so when i get money for my birthday, i'll also get $2K+ from my loans. i should be fine once Oct. rolls around. but totally fucked til then. and i might lose my apartment bc it's month to month so they don't have to give me that much notice. again, i should contact them. fuck.
well, i am going to go over to the hippies to pick up the books and clothes that didn't sell. and try to be less pissed off. grr.
and the last thing i needed right now: i signed into myspace bc i am addicted to mobsters and my ex, OCDave just friend requested me stating "hope you don't hate me", even better. he's married, has a nice place and a great car. neat.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
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Hey girl. I wish that we could help you out financially. I know that I offered to a few months back... but now we can't because of our move and Jay's surgery. If you need a couch... you can have my couch! I know that's not helpful.
I really wish I could give you some real help rather than just advice.
Is there any part time, cash paying, under the table work that you could take for the month? Something that you could start asap? Like waitressing or something... anything? I'm sad to hear about you selling your beloved things. I mean, we all do it sometimes... but it's rough.
You have to call places about your bills and tell them that you'll need to make a double payment next month and ask them not to turn things off. And you'll have to tell your apartment management the same thing.
this actually made me cry yesterday. the fact that you would even think of offering to help me means so much. thank you.
i can't waitress bc you have to carry things and i never have and i think i would be terrible. i could totally barista but even jobs like that seem to have a rigorous application process. the last guy was rude, like implying - what is a grown woman like you trying to get a job for $8 at my coffee stand for?
i try to get babysitting gigs and tutoring (a lot want a car). but today i am going to focus on getting a PT job that i can have whilst in school. i am going to approach it that way in my cover letter, too.
and yes, i really have to deal with rent. i am going to write them a letter, the sooner the better. and electric won't shut off, i took care of my shut off notice, but around the 20th (right when school starts) i'll lose cable and Internet and then the next week i'll lose my phone.
but my mom doesn't want to "keep having the same conversation". ok, well, that's the only thing going on right now that i have to talk about. and also "i am worth way more than these jobs are offering". hence why i am going to school. she seems to be forgetting i didn't have success in NJ/NYC with jobs either. just really frustrating.
miss and lvoe!
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