i went from not really eating or sleeping but not really hanging out with herb either but getting stuff done to an extent and feeling kinda shitty
...to...
eating and sleeping all the time and hanging out with herb a lot and not really getting anything done and feeling ok but also really guilty.
the whole balance thing.
today is the day to get stuff done. when i think about it, it doesn't seem that overwhelming but it's the doing it part that isn't getting done. just do it! (not a nike endorsement)
and it's HaLLoWeeN! i am stoked. i have to finish the top to my costume, but feel pretty good about finding something whilst also getting laundry done.
also, i created a blog for a school project that is due tomorrow, please visit HERE!
Friday, October 31, 2008
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Hey friend, well... since you know what the problem is, you should go ahead and find your boundaries and set some personal standards to keep yourself on track.
Slipping off the road isn't that big a deal, just so long as your not falling into a big hole.
Since you've mentioned more than one that hanging with herb is helpful to your sleep, maybe only hang with him after six pm or something like that. That way, in the day you can get your work done... be awake and motivated, and relax at night when everything is done. The benefit is a good nights sleep with the help of your friend Herb.
The question, and I hope that this doesn't offend you, is are you able to have herb at your disposal and wait to see him until night time. I know that if I have cigarettes in my house... I HAVE to smoke them. But, if they're not available to me, I don't really even think about it. So, if Jay is smoking... I am too. Because of this, I can't ever have cigarettes in the house.
This time when i stopped for a whole week it was different. i wasn't thinking of who i could call all the time, i felt ok and when my friend shared with me it was gravy. then for another 10 days i had a few days where i had, a few days where i didn't, i was mainly ok, except for last friday when i was calling and txting everyone i knew, to no avail, but even then, i went to bed and got up for school the next day.
no offense taken. right now, i don't feel like i can be the best monitor of myself. (more about that) the thing is...i know i can set limits and be really organized and sometimes go overboard but catch myself, but other times, remembering and feel like oh yeah, daily show is gonna be good tonight.
i have a cigarette outside. i've been wanting to smoke it, but i haven't. i haven't had the "i need it" moment yet. i'll know.
thanks :)
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