friend bear

i got this friend bear and a care bear pencil at the dentist. i have to get my broken tooth fixed (again) before i need a root canal. i have to get on that. and getting an annual. and calling places. and go to the store. and other stuff. agh, why does so little seem like so much?! and that's not even it. bah!

yesterday my interview was canceled, so my friend and i hung out. i am not good with hey let's just go with it...but i did, kind of. we went to the store where her gfriend works and had lunch outside with her. then we went towards SE bc her friend had called but had left already, so we went to my house which i warned was hella messy. she helped me clean. a lot. she was really ambitious and we have more stuff to do. i feel more motivated to do stuff. woo!

in group, she did say some weird comment to someone from someone not there, so i am cautious, well actually no, just aware as i change none of my actions or comments. i am a bit worried about her bc she stopped taking her meds. she's 23. around the same age, i just stopped taking the tricyclic antidepressant i was taking and then took lots and lots of drugs. of different kinds. she went to every other day which i guess i kind of weening and then stopped for 3 days before seeing psych. she has bipolar and possibly schizophrenia. they can't make you take things and they see a lot worse cases of not taking medication, it's not their m.o. to push. and i trust psych and she comes to group and says she's not stopping therapy bc she needs it. the only thing she did that was not cool to me directly was calling me like 15 times in a day. i did say i would hang out. but it was the day i got back from the airport and i didn't know which bag my phone was in and when i got it, i saw all the calls and was like, uhhh. but alls cool. but she keeps puking and passing out and getting really angry. those are bad. i tried to get her to go to the doctor today. i'm gonna txt her.

besides that, i love dance. ellen was on sytycd last night. she's funny. i didn't do my homework bc i am bored. but it's the last week so i should just get it DonE! i felt like there was something else. but i suppose not. word.