sunday....

today was the last day of my unintended, longer break from work a la broken, infected tooth =/ i am really happy to be going back. i missed it. i missed doing stuff. i am going to be hurting come paychecks =(

it's annoying that one thing happens and my whole world, job, finances, everything are completely tossed up into a swirling mess of anxiety and what-if's. i mean if i look back to tuesday i was in a ball on the floor writhing in pain crying bc i couldn't find a dental appt. in my price range, lame-o. i've said it so many times, but i will say it again, i want so bad to get to a point where i am a bit ahead. where something happens and i am able to take care of it without turning my whole world into a tizzy.

i need to take care of business with school, they told me before present crap-o-la that i had been awarded another $18K, so uh, that could help things. and now i am all set up with net and in 3 weeks i'll have the same schedule m-f so i can build it into my routine, let's do it, i say!

i also would like to think about getting a car bc going around town to and from different dentists, pharmacy and everyday hoopla is really annoying on bus. i have clothes and books ready to sell and then if unsellable, donate, but uh, i can't carry them. but i think this week i am going to make small trips, at least on the days i work til noon. tomorrow the clothing resale store i was thinking of is closed, so maybe a backpack full of books? sounds painful already...