I went to OG psych yesterday, she thinks abilify is helping and that i am not manic, whew. We talked about tachacardia, the rapid heart beat thing that doc was concerned about, she said to make sure i am drinking water or other fluids and that things with caffeine, ie coffee, tea, cocoa, diet pop don't count and will contribute to the problem, erg. I am doing better today, I think ;)

We also talked about drinking alcohol and she said 'well you're on serious medications, what do you think might happen?' 'That it will affect me more.' So, I had 4 drinks last week and didn't feel sick but that was only 2 weeks in, abilify is still working into system. So, I have to be really careful. I would like to learn the skill of being able to say no sometimes, sigh.

We had a laugh about the pleasant blue envelope a drug company sent her so she opened it and we made a fake commercial 'look, he's bbq'ing! his mental illness prevented him from that before. with geodode enjoy activities you used to.' lol good times :)

I have to go to Rx, I was going to go yesterday, but I found out that the OHP paperwork I got was just to tell me I am on the reservation list which means nothing but now I have the form filled out if my number gets chosen, boo. So I came home after my appts. bc I was a bit miffed.

I took this quiz on OkCupid whilst visiting a profile of a nice gent I am going on a photo walk with and I think it's pretty accurate as opposed to the Bullshitter vocabulary score I got, ha! Anyway, I got

#6, the questioner, aka the loyalist and "I am affectionate and skeptical". Questioners are responsible, trustworthy and value loyalty to family, friends, groups and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved and timid to outspoken and confrontative.

How to Get Along with Me

• Be direct and clear.

• Listen to me carefully.

• Don't judge me for my anxiety.

• Work things through with me.

• Reassure me that everything is OK between us.

• Laugh and make jokes with me.

• Gently push me toward new experiences.

• Try not to overreact to my overreacting.

What I Like

• being committed and faithful to family and friends

• being responsible and hardworking

• being compassionate toward others

• having intellect and wit

• being a nonconformist

• confronting danger bravely

• being direct and assertive

What's Hard

• the constant push and pull involved in trying to make up my mind

• procrastinating because of fear of failure; having little confidence in myself

• fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of

• exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger

• wishing I had a rule book at work so I could do everything right

• being too critical of myself when I haven't lived up to my expectations