best sleep ever

yesterday i was all wired watching the awesome yankees game, a close one so it was fun to watch and ANTM, i think they made the right choice but i still want dominique gone bc i never thought she was attractive and don't like her personality and i want fatima gone for her horrific attitude in the beginning and her pretty face won't carry all the way, i hope! go whit - the full figure model! who i don't think will be in unless she can be more "real".

then i had tea at like 10pm. i forget how much caffeine tea has in it. i watched tv, i read, i tried to sleep, i watched more tv, i read, tried again and finally took a sleeping pill at like 4am. i sleep sooooo well! i didn't wake up in the night. i woke up feeling rested.

i've had a good day. i went to the store, finally. which was a nice walk, too. i talked to some peeps, good times.

i replied to this woman that i've talked to before but called me again and emailed twice. it's for a really nice, close school. i would love to work there and she really likes me, but it will only be for may-mid sept, (sept 25 starts grad school and i think if i get the apprenticeship it's earlier, but i don't know). i know if i tell her this i will not get the job bc she wants me to have waldorf training which i would love and i don't feel right lying. but i don't know if i got into school so i could just go for it and when the time comes, try to get PT bc i will need money and it's super close to my house and it's awesome. i told her tomorrow was a good day to talk. i also need to call back the tutor place which would be bomb if i had a car, but going from appt to appt on bus, not so much. i also need to do my summer camp app. i have it almost done and then i fell on sunday and my writing looks worse than usual.

i also decided that since money is one of my biggest worries, i need to take some action. i spend most my money on rent, bills and medicine. i also spend money on greenery and food. so if i am spending money and worried about it, i best make the best choices. i am going to ration myself on greenery, bc without having a job or anything going on, i use and sit around too much. also with food, why would i spend $15 on crappy pizza and pop or $5 on ice cream or $5 on chips or whatever when i have no money? spending makes me feel bad. eating the food makes me feel bad and guilty to boot.

also, staying in my house for days on end is BAD! this time was extenuating circumstances, but i have to at least go get my mail or a 5 minute walk, something, anything to remind me that there is a whole big world out there besides my dark, dank apartment.

tonight is mel-g's bday, we are having dinner at the hippies and they are going to a show. i don't want to go to the show bc i can't afford it and it still kinda hurts to walk, so i am sure dancing would not be good AND saturday is "Bloom" an all day fest so i want to save my money and energy for that. oh, and i have a DR. appt tomorrow at 10:30 and i HAVE to go. word