haha, that's the plate i made with the girls at the ceramics place. i want to make more.
i went to psych. she said "you seem depressed", neat. not that i didn't know that but, i don't need it brought to my attention, i guess that's the best person to do so. she didn't change anything up bc she still thinks it's situational on-top of my underlying shiznat, which i and karapist agree. i know i'll feel better if i get a job, any job and have some money and when i get a car and can go places at my leisure and take fractions of the time, i know i'll feel better if i get school going and make some new friends, perhaps even one of a romantic nature, hmmm?
and on a completely different subject, has anyone seen recent entertainment from other countries?, it seems much more amusing than what's going on here. examples are australian tv and french mtv. i want to be in every french music video there is. or start like dressing like a character in one.
tomorrow is job applying day. i look everyday, but tomorrow i am devoting a space of time and applying to mad shit, yo. and i haaaaaave to clean. not having my dad's to do laundry at is really a) way more expensive than i ever would've thought and b) a pain in the ass. i've accumulated so much that i was considering tossing stuff, really, i just have to do it, one step at a time. baby steps. i'm good. i'm great. i'm wonderful.
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I agree. I think that you'll feel better when your life comes together more. If you have too much time on your hands, you just sit around thinking about things you need to change... which would depress anyone.
Are you going to look for more teaching jobs?
Also, I think you'll begin feeling better when you are in school. It
s a good environment for you.
yeah. i am looking for teaching-ish jobs but i don't know if i am going to get the apprenticeship and if i do how much it pays so i am kind of in limbo bc i don't want to take something and then leave in the fall, but i don't want to have nothing or something crappy and find i need to have a decent job in the fall. i think that most people that go to grad school full time don't work or work part time. i hope to do that to focus on that if i can get scholarships and loans and that jazz.
i found a couple summer camp jobs, one that would be like 4thousand dollars after taxes for only 2 months of work and it starts after my bro's wedding, so i am applying for that today.
yeah, i basically made a pact that if i didn't start feeling better once things smoothed out and i was in school i would go over my treatment plan at that point. but hopefully we won't have to go there.
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