confused

ok. so i guess i don't really know what i want. i think i am pretty stuck with my decision to take a leave of absence though. i realized that what i need to do is make decisions for myself. it's really important for me to get support and advice from people, but what i need to do is take the parts that work for me from each person and add that onto my own thinking and come to a conclusion. through all of this i am learning about myself and growing more aware in my thinking which is turning into action.

i applied to a job to be a toddler teacher, it's really close to my house and i think it would be good for me especially since i am going into it with a positive attitude and knowing that it is for the time being. i also looked into being a big sister. it's 3 times a month with a year commitment. i think i could do that. i am going to think about it.

karapist is away this week (bad timing - whaddya gonna do?) but i am still going to go to the clinic bc i need refills on my vitamins and supplements. i might try for an appointment, but i am not waking up early to get there, i am going when i wake up or rather go when i feel like it bc i have been waking early. by early i mean, i am up around 6:30/7am which is kinda lame bc i don't feel like i have that much to fill my day and i end up napping, i would rather wake around 9am and not take a nap, i think i woke up around then today, but there was the clock changy thingy.

it's freezing here, literally 32degreesF or lower and they are threatening snow again which i am not too jazzed about. in other completely unrelated news, i've been updating i am what i eat somewhat regularly with one majah revelation...