this above is a "lucky cat", i saw them in a store and apparently they are all over the place (Internet).
it was fun having my friend here, but taxing also, like it's hard to entertain someone and / or to know where things are (well, it is for me at least). the most difficult things were a) he knows what he wants and will push until he gets it, b) i don't go out to eat, c) i don't go to bars except for shows and d) i take public transportation and he had rented a car so i was fairly useless in getting around by car. also, it's scary to be passenger of a fairly reckless, drinking constantly driver.
ok, so he got here friday night and we came back to my place and fooled around then had amazing sex. i had expected to fool around bc we've hooked up in the past and we've been sxting. then we went out to a bar that had karaoke, ordered late night pizza while having a beer at another bar next to the pizza place. we again had great sex and fooled around that morning. we went out and had delicious breakfast. then saw my green friend and it was football playoffs, so we went to a bar and drank a bunch of beer and got thai food to go after and came back to my place. we got three movies: "Inception", "Lemon Grass" and "Predators" and ate and smoked. he then passed out. hardcore. like i tried to wake him and he just moaned and rolled over. i had been looking forward to sex, oh well. i was up a bit, though, watching movies.
then it was sunday morning and i was awoken by a gentle caress and then he pretty much just fucked me, got up to take a shower and announced he was going to get coffee. he was gone a while, he returned and said he had a coffee and then he went to a bar and had 2 espresso martinis, i joked that i hated him, i had asked him to either get me coffee or bring me creamer bc when he left he didn't have a plan. he didn't do either. he almost left but then i heard him muttering 'i'm not gonna go out and get creamer', so i did. meh. then we smoked and he went to met his bro in law so he was gone a while again. we went to tron at an imax which was pretty awesome. we left paraphenelia in the rental car, d'oh! we went to a club for dinner and drinks we got other movies: "Date Night" and "Dinner for Schmucks" and got home and smoked and pass out occurred again.
Monday morning, repeat, but even a shorter time of sex, felt very utilitarian =( we went out to the shops on hthorne and walked around, then got lunch and drinks. we went back to my place and i did some hw and then he took me to group, he was going to go out to get someone a bday present, but then he said he just went to a bar. i had to submit stuff, and instead of waiting for me, he went out drinking while i sat home and did my homework. he got back just as i was done and he passed out again. oh well. he left tuesday morning, a kiss good bye.
i guess overall, i expected more. maybe it was the booze, maybe it was the smoke, but my sex drive was def. higher than his, well i guess my romantic drive, we did technically do it everyday plus some, but it seemed that after the first few times he only wanted to get off. anywho.
i've been getting all my hw done. cleaning and stuff. doing artsy things to fill time. reading. nothing exciting, but keeping busy. whee.


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This post actually makes me feel really sad.
I can't help but feel that that guy took advantage of you somehow. I'm not sure why, because clearly you were willing and happy to participate in all of this. I don't know...
=/ thanks
i agree. it's like he took advantage of my feelings and my time.
he not once asked, do you want to do this? or what do you want to do?, he was more like, football is on, so we're going to a sports bar, i'll keep you full of beer and then pass out over 3/4 of your bed while you're still awake.
i kinda thought it would be more couple-ly, oh well, not what i expected.
for some reason i am a really easy target for people to make fun of and / or take advantage of myself. i am learning more about being appropriately assertive.
Hey Nikkol, I'm a really big target for the same things and it makes me feel helpless when I see it happen to people who I care about.
it sounds so backwards, but i really think some people take others kindness and exploit it. i would really do anything (within my means) to help people out and instead of them just asking, they take take take and make things weird. meh.
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