bitter

So, first off, I was super sick this weekend, like in bed the whole time, fever, taking tons of cold medicine, ugh. I went to group Monday night to get out of the house. I went to psych and it was young psych and it was a good session, although she asked me "so, you're really okay?" bc I haven't seen her since the once where I kinda complained afterwards bc I was confused and also not at a good place, anyway, they deal with mentally ill all day, so I am sure it's nothing. She wanted to make sure I wasn't hiding anything, which I don't do very well, then I thought and got a little upset but yeah, i said and she was like, "good bc you seem to be doing well".

Work is good, I want more, but can't force that. Well, I could be more proactive in searching, but I do not want to overwhelm myself. Good girl. School is finished for one more class which I hope I pass, I royally screwed up at the very end because I was sick and didn't do work until after my team turned things in, but I did all my stuff, so hopefully I will get some credit. I need to go shopping for a dress and shoes for cb's and also kt's wedding and brunch and other parties. I would like to lose some weight, I hope that I can. There is this HCG diet but it's super restrictive and you take a hormone, I am not good with restrictions and don't really want to take a hormone.

Now, the bummer, I haven't heard from rb in a week and a half :( I hung out over there 2 weeks ago on Monday and it was fine, he even said, 'we'll have to go for a photowalk or happy hour next time', so logically I would think there would be a next time. He asked me last Monday last minute to a photowalk which I declined bc my sleep was all messed up and I had homework to do. Since then I have not heard from him at all. I wrote him yesterday and no response and I know he is on-line bc of FB updates. I was kinda thinking it was getting stagnant but at least we could talk or something. I am not digging this ignoring thing. So I have been fairly obsessive about checking my email and phone 'just to make sure' but I feel that he is done with me and this is his subtle way of saying so. I want to tell him that leaving someone in the dark sucks. Even I say "i don't think we're a match" if I want someone to stop contacting me and I am afraid of contact. erg. well, back to searching for the perfect mate. On the Internet ;)