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i feel crummy. and my mood is affecting my physical body in terms of head and body aches. boo. i didn't sleep that much. i woke up really early, like 6 or 7 or something, i stayed in bed til maybe 8. meh. i can't sleep more right now, eh. i again kinda want to do stuff, but also want to do nothing. i need to clean. laundry is needed but i don't have enough quarters. annoying. i also have to sew some nap sacks for the kids at work. machine stitch and add drawstrings and also hand sew (which i haven't done in a while and is tough) names onto them. i made a little baby doll and a finger puppet this weekend. pix prolly on facebook. i need to get good pix.

so the guy i was fooling around with is over. married with kid not a good scene. i know it's the right thing but i still feel kinda down about it, i am just super emotional, maybe that's what scared him away, lol. i said it felt like he was making all the calls and he said it maybe wasn't best to continue. so we agreed to not fool around anymore. i am fine with that really. i need to focus my energy on positive, healthy relationships. i also have been sxting / chatting with this guy long distance and he wants me to fly there. again, unhealthy, but fun. but the more time i spend away from here, the less time i have to meet people here. ah ha.

i am gonna try to find some shows bc i've decided that is a good way to meet people bc i can go alone, people usually talk to me even if i act weird and i like to dance and listen to music even if no one talks to me. bam.