my head feels likes it's going to explode.

seriously. it kept me from sleeping. and when i 'woke up' i was in so much pain. i laid with the heating pad for 1/2 hour and then got out of work. i tried to relax and lay and sleep maybe. i was wincing in pain. the fear of my head exploding is anxiety, but sometimes it feels like it's going to.

i haven't had a severe, persistent, prohibiting participation in social activities and work for a long time. it sucks. the only thing i can think of and is a big thing is that i haven't had a massage in like 2 months. the longest i've gone since el accidente was 6 weeks without one. i want one, i can't afford one right now. i should call and see if she takes my new insurance. and then la perioda and also work with sun and allergies. and i think some might be migraines. i've been really sensitive to light and stuff. for those that don't have headaches i know it's prolly hard to understand, just take some tylenol and be done with it. i took advil and sudafed and nothing. meh.

i am getting my fingerprints done at 5:30. now that i haven't worked i could get there earlier and try to do stuff at the library which closes at 6, boo. i would go earlier, but i have to be downtown at 8 for karapist. note: check phone and i-pod for charge - i-pod charging, phone in room where i am going to read. store. oh, there is a SW downtown, i can get a bus pass at least. woot.