wooooo hoooo!
on another note, i've been really concerned about my weight lately. i've been getting of lots pictures from bach party and whatnot and i just don't like they way i look. i am in this weird in between spot where some of my clothes fit me but not well but i am not ready to give them up and also not ready to get bigger stuff bc i really want to tone up. as mama holler noted, i feel like i am almost always running around, i walk at least 2 maybe 3 miles 5-7 days and just don't understand how i could still be so overweight. i've reallllly made changes with my diet. the pizza and ice cream and binges are coming less and less frequently, with hopes of minimum consumption. but i guess it's going to take time and commitment. but i feel that with just work i couldn't be able to handle it let alone once school starts. it's something i really want bc i know it makes me unhappy but i guess i have to decide when and how much i really want it bc i am the one to make it happen with more cardio a day and toning once the time comes. i am just glancing at my exercise bike. i could just sit on it now. and pedal. with the fan on. but seriously, i feel to tired to even move the heating pad off the seat of it. and i am sweating. i've figured out that the hottest times lately have been like 3-9 which sucks bc it doesn't cool down til like midnight. it's gonna be 80 for at least an hour or 2 or few.
i had a helluva time this morning. i am sure my journal is funny, actually i kinda read it at lunch. i remember "my hand is pink and chalky. but at least my coffee is delicious." so, 'little miss have no money and doesn't plan ahead' didn't get a bus pass for the month so is getting them weekly this month. i almost got it yesterday but then time was a factor and i didn't. so i went to the supermarket this morning at 8:15. customer service didn't open til 9. they wouldn't sell me a bus pass. i've done that job and i know there is a lot of stuff to do in the back and what not, but there should be an open till there for stuff like that. anyway. i didn't have any money. the only way to get money was to buy something on my debit card and get cash back but i couldn't think of *anything* i needed and couldn't justify it bc i needed to get it anyway bc who knows what would happen in the evening. ugh, i am going on and on. so they waited til 9 after i sat (luckily they have tables) and then stood there about 5til. i got it and then the bus was at the corner. i ran. (i wrote also: "i don't like running") didn't make it. had to wait. got to work at 9:45. stinky. day2 of awesome attendance: fail. if i do good the rest of the week i get new earrings. i am counting it as a day. bc i really wanted to just turn around and go home and still just pushed to get there as soon as i could so. next week is dinner out. then showgoing-night on the town and festivals and camping in august. karapist (as with friends) have always suggested the reward system, i came up with this alone and was proud and so was karapist. yeah.
ok, i love dancing. i like watching it. i like doing it and i do it as if no one was watching. SYTYCD is such a good show. i said something like 'it's like 2 perfect human bodies moving in amazing ways' and then one judge / choreographer said something almost exactly the same. ok, calling myself out - make connections with people on reality shows. bad news.
i also made a priority list with consequences like 'if you don't send this in, you might not be able to go to school'. bc i need to get shiznat done, ya'll. peace.
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You look SO SO SO pretty in that picture. I LOVE it!
I LOVE that picture too! You look gorgeous!
I've never like dancing much- watching it or doing it. I guess I'm just not good at it. When I was living in England I took a Salsa class with my friend Molly. I left crying. Seriously.
Your lists sound good and positive.
Keep up the good work, friend!
ps
the sound number verification at the bottom of this is CREEPY.
thank you ladies. i like that photo. but i felt i looked stiff, but that was when we had to go outside in the sweltering heat and start 'official' pix, my sisinlaw - mary took this one. there are 2 more of me i like from here that i don't see posted on her flickr, one alone up at the hut and one dancing with my dad. i have them in frames here. along with one of a&d. word.
i took dance for at least 10 years from like 3-13 and then i did track more and dance less and then i stopped it and then i tried a few years later and sucked in a studio jazz class and then later in a ccm ballet class. i just like shakin my booty. but i would gladly go see dance. i don't think i'd like ballet except for the art of it, but seeing some modern or hip hop dance would be hot.
ps
i have no idea what your ps means
LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay, here's what my ps meant. You know how at the bottom of a comment you have to put the letters in so that the computer knows you're not a spammer. Well... suddenly... for the first time ever, your blog talked to me... and made me put in the numbers I heard... but with a bunch of mumbling and whispering in the background. It would be like, psh uma phis clum 3 rellllph umu stune 5.
CREEPY.
NOTE: at the bottom of this post is a normal word verification.
that's freaking weird. i certainly didn't ask for that. and i thought i turned word verification off altogether anyway bc for some reason i seem to fail themm i think bc i try to type it normally when i should just go slow and make sure i get it right. i think sites may be adding verification automatically bc of the mass spam. i've had to do it myspace. and facebook is still weird to me. it's all about games and shit for me. not really social networking like the space is.
uh. add and remove words as you see fit so that makes more sense. hehe.
I third it! I love that pic!!! The dress looks great on you too!! Crazy that there was all that stress over it. The results are fab!
thank you!
it's funny to look at the picture bc it looks so simple and fine and remember all the stress even to the point of my mom tying the back.
i wonder if i'll ever wear it again?.......
Nikkol,
Hey. My mom was recently diagnossed with PCOS....basically your ovaries create too much testortone which can cause you to put on weight, be depressed or moody, etc. see the link. who knows?
http://www.womentowomen.com/insulinresistance/pcos.aspx
hi! i checked out that link, thanks for thinking of me and hope your moms is doing a'ight. i am going to a naturopath tonight. but i am overdue for ob-gyn. meh.
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