sunday afternoon

i've had another non-eventful weekend. friday i didn't feel that great. but yesterday pretty good and today - alright, a bit stressed.

i tried calling some friends but all are doing stuff or not answering. i feel like hanging out with people. not just leaving my house to walk to a park or something. boo. maybe i could take this time and clean instead of spending it on the net or watching TV or reading.

i applied for about 30 jobs. i messed up on some of the cover letters bc i change them out instead of saving 300million copies. so i think i said 'i'd like to be the new your assistant' and dumb stuff like that. hopefully they read more than that and my resume more so. next, i'm on to non-profits on craigslist and the categories after. then i am gonna do jobdango (nw focused large job search) and apply at ohsu, it's a hospital but they have admin jobs and pay well.

i haven't told my family about my job sitch yet. lame. i fear that they will just judge me and not help me and blame my inadequacies. or try to get me to move. in fact, i talked to my mom today. she called, i was kind of in a phone mood. i got lectured on how she wants me to be happy but is afraid that grad school is going to put me in more debt and she knows i won't move back there, but i should do what i want to do up at my dad's house. in the boondocks. where there are no schools so i would have an hour+ commute each way with no car and no good public transportation. and then i'd be certified in WA, a place i don't want to live or work bc it doesn't suit me as well as portland does. and to get nat'l certification is even harder and takes more time and money. oh and not to mention the hundreds of dollars i've put into all the applications and tests and fingerprints and stuff. this time i didn't even respond, it'd be like beating a dead horse. i said, 'well, i don't feel like talking, but wanted to say hey.'

now i am just annoyed. i couldn't sleep. i have a headache that advil didn't help. i couldn't pay attention to L&O. i don't want to apply for jobs when i am aggro. i guess it's more computer games. yippee.