stuff and pix up

so. i thought about when i have headaches (right now and past) and the difference between when i don't and i think it's outdoors? i think it's too much sun exposure causing headaches. OR it could be 'very high' pollen. it used to be rated on weather.com set to my zipcode: none, low, moderate, high, now there is a very high. i am trying to save the singulair as long as i can so taking it every 2nd or 3rd day but i really need it everyday. meh.

i had a good day yesterday, i went to the hippies. all of them brightened my day in one or another. c-los did his thang in the yard and cooked food and gave me some bc when he asked i said i hadn't eaten. word. i-ra said i looked beautiful which i thought was odd bc i just had my hair back in a bun and the dress i used to wear everyday last year that's orange and gray and uh, you tie it around the neck and it's cinched at the waist. and khaki plaid airwalk boat shoes. and STone played beautiful music and walked me to the herb shoppe where mel-g was.

there was a class on alternative treatments to mental health. but it was more for providers, not providees. i stayed a little bit and took the handout which i think is informative. they said that meds are always going to be needed for some people, and there was a lot of infor on schizophrenia and autism and stuff i didn't understand, or didn't care to try to at the time. also, almost every alternative cause like hormones or vitamin defeciencies or thyroid issues i've been checked for which is pretty reassuring. the clinic is as natural as they can be. i want to check into heavy metals ((ROCK ON!!!-can't help it)) (which i think were checked in my CBC) and there's something else. i have the handout.

i've been sleeping a lot. i don't know if it's heat, sun, depression, or combinations of. i have been going to bed aroound 1-2 and getting up around 8-10 so that is good. but i am taking a giant nap, today was from like 1:30-7:30, that's like 6 hours and i was hot and sweaty and uncomfortable. i should just do stuff. i'd like to put the air on full blast but i am just using fans bc of cost. but dad and jane might come this wkend so i think i am just going to say 'they will be here sunday morning' and clean up before then. sam's show on sunday is Rejoice! - uplifting gospel instrumentals and very slow waltzes. it'll prolly be all jazz fusion, i think. i don't know what to expect, but tis free on sunday, i'm going.

friday, tomorrow night, STone is playing at the Chaos Cafe. I have to not spend money. it's free, but everything there is reallllly tempting. she was on the radio today for like a 1/2 hour. there is a festival "beloved" coming up and i really want to go but that is another story and they talked to some other people and played some recorded stuff but the last portion she played and talked to the dj, 4 songs and lots of talking. she did awesome. she sounded awesome. i can't wait to talk about it with her tomorrow. they're all partying. not my scene at this juncture.

i applied to a PS job that had been looking for someone the same time i got the other job. the only reason i didn't call them back was bc i had already gotten the other job and this one is like an hour commute by bus. i have to check out the bike scenario, if i get an interview or a job there. i seriously think some of the jobs are just marketing things to get your email, bc i've gotten some in my inbox marketing to me and it's not where your email is all weird, it's my actual addy. so i keep marking them as spam. i did Internet marketing. i never got emails that way. lame.

i might walk to the grocery store. i might not. i might play some puter games. i might not. i might watch some TV. i might not. i might read. i might not. i guess i'm not very certain on anything right now. except that i am literally so hot i am sweating. it's my apartment and me more right now than the heat outside.

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